The Soul of the Slobbering Hound

Whole weeks go by and the words don’t come, but bark instead from the cavernous deep of my longing, of my confusion, of my loved and lost, of my ambition and inadequacy, of my dying, of my fear, of my disgust. Barking like slobbering hounds, ungrateful for the opportunity I’ve given them to live again, to be reborn, but no. They are creatures of habit, these dogs, these thoughts, this heart of mine. It wants what it had, and only when it gets it will it start wanting everything else as well.

Monday

[empty]

My cheeks became so rosy. My lips, too, they were a new red. I saw it in the early mornings when I would wake to the unwelcome truths of the day. My body full of promise. All our plans had come true. Even this one. And then I lay down there on that strange bench. I reached out for Doctor Suphatra's arm, but she barely noticed. When I woke up it was dead, and I wondered what else had died with it.

3 comments:

Unknown said...

I like this type of literature.

Ilana Laps said...
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saskia said...

ilan.. i reach out to you. we need to talk of this. someday.